A Letter for Khan

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah .

Dear Sameer,

Really sorry I just had my time, I know its been so long time we haven't spoken a lot since we tried to move on each other from the past and continue with our lives .....

I have to admit to you, very straight.

I still hard to forget you until today💕

Its been 3 months I've been through my life and I'm sure you still remember about my new man after you leave me. I had the worst times for knowing him better but dunno why, my heart shockin' fast. His worldly life is better than yours, but thats not what I'm looking for. Even I can accept if he is not religious like you. He is a single man, you are married. But he doesn't look good to me. The real Billionaire, must be rich in every ways of life, not just your wealth, 

but you have to be Rich in your heart as well. 

Every man has their uniqueness that I can't do compare, but how if the heart speaks?

I hate his characters beyond all his successful life and I clearly noticed every single moves.

Can you imagine if he is Fucking busy more than you, has perfect lifestyle, has same ages with you but already has 3 huge companies, only say good morning to me, but sadly he insulted me and said that I'm crazy or naughty cuz I talked with men. He is overprotective and jealousy guy. He didn't understand that my world is more bigger than his. I have lots of men and women around the world. I tried to make it clear but he said he has many girls and can replace me. He has bare minimum efforts. And I felt like my power is not match with his little energy. He knows I'm an Alpha female, and it scares him bec I'm perfectly strong. I don't wanna change my genuine style bec I love being myself. Not arrogant but I'm real ones, Extraordinary and different. I know my worth and independent. Thats why I made a decision to leave first, even he is very intelligent and has a dark sense of humour. 

But in my sajadah prayer,

When I remember Allah, and sighs -

Why I always find you 😞💕, not him .

I tried to lose your shadows .....

But I failed .

Please judge me if I was wrong.

I guess you miss me once until I miss you.

Someone ever told me straight if you still can't forget a person, means that person also still remember you. Heart's Connection.

I have faults, you have faults. I have my humble principles, you also have your great principles. 

Long distance, we also have a lot of misunderstanding cuz we are far apart. 

Many rocks, many high walls. I already proved to you if true love is remain still. And Allah created Love for humans in this world, for happiness, for goodness, to protect and care for your people, no matter who you are and wherever you're came from ️🌍🕊️

My Love is extremely big for people.

And this blessings of love from my heart is for you too. It sounds crazy but thats my bitter truth. I decided not to continue with him since 

2 weeks ago, and still can't get over you.

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If you ever said that I'm special for you,

And such a beyond in your eyes,

Then you are wrong .

You are special in my heart, Sameer ❤️

If you're not special then why I wrote this long texts for you. Waste my time.

And I really took my efforts here with courage.

We secretly admired at each other.

We learned many aspects of life. We both loves Allah.  We have the same characters and perspectives. We fight many battles on different levels. We created lots of beautiful epic memories before. We built strong fundamentals. I motivate people, you motivate people. The difference is only 1 : you are male, and I'm female. I'm a city woman who lives in the jungle which full of snakes, monkeys, and crocodiles. You are a successful man who lives in the luxurious city which is full of pleasures, high-standard class, and achievements. 

I'm a Lioness, you're a sleeping Bear. 

Unfortunately my world or current life is still not same or wonderful like yours💕

Sometimes I don't understand why Allah made me wrong number and contacted you right on January 12th - two years ago, and thats coincidence really impacts us a lot.

And the lesson is, you are my best love.

I would love to know you, and hear from your heart and minds, Sameer.

Bec I don't want we both lies and then pretending if we already fine. This magic of love💫 makes me can't control my own logic, you know. I can't live my life peacefully without final decisions. Communication is the key. 

Not only me the one who always starts to maintain. I learned from Zefanya's bf. 

How could the relationship be so meaningful without deep emotional talks, right .

But your minds will help me 💕 so much .

So if you feel the same way, for the sake of Allah, I hope we can share our feelings together and learn from the bad scripts of our romantic films as you said before, to be great 💫

This is the top of my climax.

Few weeks ago I met Mr. Riad, 44, from Qatar .

And has wife and beautiful teenagers as well.

He is the real sultan in UAE and has multiple oil & gas companies in North Africa, Indonesia, Kuwait, Qatar, and many more. As a chairman, he is amazed with my personality through my profile and reading all my bio. And his words are perfectly same like your words, Sameer.

He told me if one day - I will become famous .

I feel surprised with all of his psychological mindset about me and he is totally damn right .

He accurately explained how my mindset works and the future in my hands. When he said that on calls, I constantly remember you.

He clearly said that I must have a pusher .

"Dear you will become a great ones, if you succeed in my country then you'll be famous. 

I can't believe if you're so beautiful and a real Muslim too. I never met someone who is very charismatic like you before. Believe it dear .

You will motivate and shake the world." 🌍

I remembered your words when you wanted me to move and stay in America so I can help many women to have a better life mindset💕.

I don't know if you two are really saying it from the heart with truth - but I tried to believe it in hopes I can change that in a few years.

PS. Maybe you'll be surprised, before you sent pics of Morning Blue Sky in America last times, I always pinned your chat at the top of my inbox. I bet that was wrong sent, bec I still didn't believe you and might be that was just your kind excuses. But I realized the two of us always get sweet coincidences.

Please do Istikhaara' with me ❤️🤲🏻

We both have to ask Allah together.

But if you have new gf then it's ok for me, 

let the destiny speak more out louder.

It probably means a clean break.

At least I have revealed my secret feelings to you, bec I still became your love's prisoner.

This is my Heart's speaking.

Love, C