A Day To Remember💞

When someone left you forever from this Dunya (passed away🌻), you will get some unspoken feelings which explode in your heart. But you can't describe and tell it to anyone cuz its too complicated. All the things you can do are just looking down and ended up in cries. Black flowers are spreading around the home and nobody even cares about your feelings. They will get busy with all of important things and some of them just saying of condolences. And the most saddest thing is, you are alone. People come and go but your heart is broken. You will never knew if you get it because once it happens, it would be last forever and might be create a lot of wounds in your heart, body and minds. Hows your exact feelings when you're crying but people walk around without even ask your needs or just sitting next to you. You still stuck with your head, don't know how to start it, feels confused when you're talking. Mostly people only can strengthen you by nice words. But still, it doesn't make you feel better. In the other hand, you lost someone ....... 

This person, not hurts you with their actions when they are still alive, but they will leave you perfectly, leave the footprints, and smiling peacefully for the very last times just to make you miss all the moments, memories and dreams that you ever had together with them. You won't be miss the person, but you're gonna miss their Presence. You will be miss their real Existence, as long as their love is pure and gentle for you. Suddenly, your world is empty. The entire days and nights that you already spent with them. The all of right speech or quotes about them that you always remember. The way they talks so straight in front of you. The sound of their voices that sometimes bother you because its too much out loud in your ears. The favorite songs that you always heard with them in a million times and never forget about the lyrics. The kisses and hugs that might be you ever got from their reaction. The unstoppable laughs which really made your whole days. The kind of expression, that you always notice very often. Long hours calls, crazy texts or silly emoji face which you ever got from them daily. You will miss everything.

But you just remain silent today.

You can't express to anyone. Drown in silence. 

How can you get through the beautiful days without them, if a person's existence is everything to you. Prayers are not enough to make you strong, and if it weren't for Allah then none of this would be possible. You feels lonely, just thinking alone in the silence of the night to hide your pain. The next morning you will find the sunshine, hoping you smile and wake up to start your bright day. But when you open the door, the voices are no longer heard anymore and you're falling down into your tears .......

There is someone, Allah, who has them all and the knowledge of sincerity is very expensive.  There is Allah who knows it all, who loves them more than we do. You will be tested by all the things you love the most. And when the time comes, you will be tested even when you're not even ready yet. You will get a moment where you want to call "someone" but you realize on your own. Because your logic says it's over, but your heart are still in chains. The memory will be stored in your minds and as far as you dive into it, then it takes your own strength.

As long as you have free time with people you care about, don't forget to put your ego down and give in. Let your beloved ones shout out in front of you, as long as it can still make you see their figures. Really hurts when we already miss someone but now all we can look at is, just the gravestone. And the flowers we offer only last until the wind blows. Did you know that Rainy☔ is not enough to reflect the  torrent of tears. What we remember is only that sad experiences. We don't have a chance anymore to just call their names or ask them how they are doing. We can't hold their hands anymore and we only meet through dreams. 

We miss the moment when we no longer hear our lovely songs together. We don't get a time where a cup of coffee can be enjoyed together.  We will miss the happy times together, while chattering and mocking each other. We can only remember one day where their waving hands, will probably be the last for us to see.

Don't let the smile they leave behind make us grieve because of the loss in regret. 🍂